*really? really??*

It will al be fine. Always is. I am well acquainted with my bootstraps, and I have several kicky and cute pair of Big Girl Pants. I’m no ones victim, and this too shall pass. Yeah yeah yeah- believe me, I’ve got that one down in aces. It’s a bad week, not a bad life. Right? RIGHT??

I won’t line everything out, because dammit I am sick of having crap going wrong, but I will give you the nutshell: grad school testing, interviews, changes in program, IEP changes, emissions test and state inspection, parking ticket for not having said test despite having a 30 day window and proof of said window, two months of waiting if we get EBT with still no answer or funding, medical benefits that are turned down at every hospital and clinic I can find, Bean needing some medical care, a car accident (very minor), attempting to get flu shot and being told my benefits are only good at a doctor’s office (see above), another test, state of Washington lost the child support X sent in (yay!!) despite my having been waiting since Sept 1 for it, X cannot send October support in until we figure out where September went, bills due, and on and on it goes.

The part that sucks is many of these things I am powerless to do anything about. If I can get in there and roll up my sleeves and do some stomping, I’m more than happy and willing to do it- it’s just the layers of crap and bureaucracy so many of these problems are couched within… I’m exhausted. And I popped the yolks flipping my eggs this morning. Going back to bed is looking pretty good…

And Abby wanted to take goofy pictures and put them up- so there’s your dissonance for the day. Plus, it’s my birthday on Wednesday. Erp.

7 thoughts on “*really? really??*

  1. Oh I could have written this title and post…different circumstances, and yet circumstances completely out of my control.
    As I have been told, even by you…hang in there, it will pass.
    I miss you and would love to sit and visit and pretend life is great, grand and wonderful.
    And your birthday…yay!

  2. Your capacity to cope with these kind of stressors is remarkable. You live one-day-at-a-time, maintain your sense of humor, reach out to God, and ask for help from others in appropriate ways. Above all, you don’t allow depression to keep you from persisting. It has to be so hard some days, yet you get up and go no matter what.

    These personal qualities and skills are the very foundation of long-term success. It’s a blessing to be your friend and watch you march toward your goals. When setbacks come (and they will!), hopefully it will get easier each time. The ability to say “Bring it on, world! I’ve been through a heckuva lot worse before!” is something that only time can instill in us.

    Have a happy birthday this week my friend!

  3. Probably not encouraging if I tell you it took me 6 months to get EBT benefits in PA even though I qualified from day 1? We got pretty hungry but we survived. You will too. I’ll send you another costco gift card once Renn gets paid for September.

  4. the fact that you took that picture with abby despite having such a bad week is proof of what kind of mom you are. pretty impressive, i think. i’ve been feeling a little down today, as my husband gets ready to head back to afghanistan on wednesday (he’s been home on his 2 week R&R – 8 months down, 4 to go). after reading this post, my life looks pretty good. i hope things start looking up for you soon. i think you are amazing, and love reading your blog, so thanks for posting even (especially) when things aren’t rosy.

  5. My birthday was last Wednesday, and given the week I was having, I made the decision to postpone it until a more convenient time.

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