And the Rains Came Down


Inspiration is a tricky thing, and the muse is always elusive. Yesterday, quite unbidden and utterly unexpectedly, the sky split open and gave me a downpour of light and inspiration. I hadn’t realized the fog had gradually gotten so cottony and thick around my spirit; but there it was, suddenly blown away by the shocking and beautiful flood of light. This appears to be my pattern with the divine. There are people who seem to carry quiet, constant inspiration with them, on a slow drip like irrigation pipes under straw on a hot summer day. I used to wonder what was wrong that I didn’t always feel the small but companionable whispering. It would make me question my faith.

But I’ve been at this long enough now and had enough experiences now to know that’s just not how the Lord communicates with me. It’s not a fault, nor a shortcoming- rather, it’s a certainly that this relationship with me is personal, unique to me- as it must be to everyone. The Lord lets me go my merry way, and then when I least expect it, he opens the faucet, turns the floodgate, unzips the clouds, kicks over the table, and throws open every window in the house. All at once. For a few moments, I am drowning in light, gasping for breath, spiritually running for every dish and pitcher I can find to catch the downpour. In this deluge, there are answers, prayers, and soul-searing guidance I may have been seeking for months– or years.

Then, just as abruptly, it stops. Like a garden after a warm summer thunderstorm, I am drenched, dripping with sustenance- in the aftermath there is clarity and direction and inspiration and communion. Dazed, I look around, wondering what was caught in the ewers and bowls, and knowing this will overfill my lamp. There is no drip irrigation in my garden; there is down-pour. There is no slow, steady whispering of direction- there are overflowing rain-barrels, providing everything needed for the long seasons ahead, whatever season that may be.

These kinds of things speak of the personal nature of God to me in ways little else does. We have words we use to speak of the divine— I use them myself with varied success, and ply them as my trade— but words are necessarily barriers. For something to be understood, it must also be understood what it is not. For me, this overwhelming sensory experience of the divine, outside of words and for a very brief series of moments outside of time, sears and seals light into my soul in ways nothing else could or can. In the middle of the rain is where my heart is set afire.

11 thoughts on “And the Rains Came Down

  1. Thank you. I’m kind of wishing I had written it in third-person instead of first. I think it might have had more impact. Regardless, I needed to write it out to figure it out. Per normal.

  2. This is so beautifully written. It should be published in something more than this blog. Really, it is that good. It really touched my soul.

  3. What a wonderful experience. I have had a couple like this. I am so grateful God is there. I have received miracles in my life recently as answers to prayers.

  4. My family all the time say that I am wasting my time here at net, except I know I am getting experience daily by reading such nice articles.|

  5. This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Lehi spoke in first person about the tree. So did Jacob about his ladder. First person is where it happened. I like the authenticity. [This is not to say you couldn’t do something else with it if it serves you. But it’s lovely as it is.]

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